Sunday, June 12, 2011

A bright side to a very frustrating problem...

My kid is about to turn 3 years old. He still doesn't talk. It's not like he's not communicating. He does. A lot. It's just that he won't use any verbal language for it. He doesn't even open his mouth. His gesticulations and face are pricelessly expressive. And his intonations relays many meanings, understood mostly by us, his parents. We're troubled, naturally. And we're taking care of it, by going to doctors, psychologists and neurologists. So far, all is to no avail. In the meantime, his development is racing forward, at times accelerated by compensation. His lack of speech development causes great stimulation of his analytic skills. It is very evident, as he is extremely quick to learn new things, like how to operate certain technologies, or where is everything in a new place.
So it got me thinking. This thought stimulation works both ways.As he speaks wordless, providing us with mere guidelines and tonal hints for understanding, he challenges us, stimulates our minds, our perception. We're so used to get clear and specific objectives, points to known referents - we're forget that it is not a given. For my child, there are none, for example. He, probably, sees the world without definitions. Imagine what it is like. Seeing objects around you and not knowing  its name, its definition, giving it your own meaning without outside influence forcing itself on your mind. Imagine, that every expression of this world is a puzzle to solve, a riddle. Everything is given to your own interpretation, from the words of the people surrounding you, to the little events in your life. And no other interpretation is received. Try watching some actionless foreign drama in a language unknown to you, preferably, of a completely alien culture. This is probably what it's like. But it is easy for my child, as he has no other choice, no other perception of the world. We do, however. We have an established view and definition of everything around us. For some of us, in different languages and meanings. But those meanings and referents are concrete and often certain. This is how we operate. And this M.O. is disrupted when someone like my kid brings his own into it. Someone with a completely unset perception, who has no need for concrete referential points, who sees only images with great and unknown potential to explore, instead of pre-defined objects with little mystery. If he sees something new, he can't rely on us, his parents, to explain to him - he can't understand us. So he has to explore by himself, discover everything on his own, and decide his own perception of what he learns. I know, many children, if not all, go through this process, but they have the adult world to help them (force on them) get the "correct" definition and understanding of their surroundings. My kid doesn't. And that's frustrating. And yet somehow, inspirational. At least, for me.